This post is pretty ??? to post but I really want to be honest because I’m sure people can relate. Here goes. (#wineme ?) Here’s what’s doin…
◀️With the picture on the left I was in the best shape of my life: fit, healthy and happy. My body was nowhere near perfect but it was something I was so proud of. It was a direct result of my dedication to using fitness to fuel my health and happiness. This is also the day I found out I was pregnant and I gladly kissed my first ever 6 pack goodbye, for now (??hopefully!!!??)
▶️◀️The pic in the middle is the morning I had the twins. I was 37 weeks and 5 days, large and in charge, miz as all can be, but proud of myself and my body for working so hard to grow two healthy babies.
▶️The pic on the right. The hear and now. 8 weeks #postpartum #postcsection- swollen and squishy. ?? I can’t believe I’m putting this belly so clearly on the Internet. I know this is ridiculous because I just had twins 8 weeks ago, but my belly makes me so self conscious! I’d whack any mom who said this to me, but I doubt I’m alone in feeling this way…so share I shall. #doublestandard
Cue rant…???? …I HATE this time in between. You worry that you’ll never get back to your old self. Maybe this pregnancy is the one that will officially give me MOM BOD (whatever that is). Maybe I have to cut out all food that tastes good. Or maybe just eat significantly less for awhile. I’d joke that I should consider cutting out wine, but that’s not even funny. Why have my total of 3 weeks of working out not made a difference?? When will the scale move again? Hopefully it’s broken! (Hello, plateau. It’s me. PS, I hate you. Regards, Betsy). #ughhhh
But then I was reading an Instagram post from @whatdreamsmaycome and although her life is seemingly unobtainable (no offense), she had this quote that totally moved me!
?? ?Work out because you love your body, not because you hate it. ???
Riiiiiight!. ?? I forgot about that! How quickly you can turn on yourself. #selfslap
So, my goal is to remind myself every time I look in the mirror to not panic, to love myself and my body for all its accomplished, and just focus on working out because it makes me a better person. This is exactly why I’ve started #100fitdays. I loved every day of it when I did it last year. It was the biggest source of energy, mental clarity and confidence – all of which I’m seriously lacking right now.
I’m happier, healthier, confidentier (#newword), stronger inside and and out and will eventually have the feeling of fitness that I miss so much. Until then, I’ll just do my best, genuinely enjoy my work outs, remind myself every 5 minutes that this is a journey and, most importantly, focus on the accomplishment I’m most proud of! #myfam. How did I get so lucky?
As my dad always says, “All you can do is all you can do.” And if I’ve learned anything from being a mom, have patience and be kind to yourself.
End rant. Resuming status #workinprogress #onedayatatime #fitmom #instafit #100fitdays
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